Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in anger but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.
Love never fails.
-1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Hearing these words preached to you, explaining love and all it's limits, explaining all it's rights because love does no wrong, is so great. I want to know what love is, what peoples' opinions of love are, what loves means. I wish I had the patience to read the Bible and know the answers to life's lessons the way this verse brings me answers. It's the definition of the person I would like to be, the way I would like to love someone. Hopefully I have been able to accomplish a few of things, even if not as fully as I have liked. I know that no one is perfect and that no relationship is quite the same. But, I do know that I would love to accomplish the goal of opening someone up to love, opening someone up to a great friendship. Not just a great friendship in its literal meaning, but great. Unexplainable, unfathomable, something hard not to love. I want to open someone up to change. Open them up to a new world, full of trust, and honesty. If I could always protect, always trust, always hope, and always preserve, I think I could move some small, but mighty mountains. I wish I could get the world to listen to the love that the people I focus on deserve.
No one could ever understand the love that these 4 people deserve. I won't limit it to 4, because there's definitely a bigger group of people I wish to reach, but 4 people specifically that have molded me into who I am because they are who they are. They may not understand, comprehend, or fathom, but change has come upon me and for all the right reasons. I no longer hide from my strengths, but rather shine out through my weaknesses. I no longer resist help, even though I continue to fight it sometimes. I no longer hold back my fear, pain, struggle, or tears, but rather let someone pull them out of me until I feel happiness.
Yes, I put myself through an unreasonable amount of blame, hate, fear, pain, and worry than I need to, but it's all for the right reasons, right? To succeed in making others feel the happiness I wish the whole world could feel. So, if you know me on more than just a friendly level, and know that I stress out a lot, worry a lot, and maybe get upset often, I hope you understand it's because I never want to let someone else feel that pain. I take it on because I know that I will handle it at some point. That's all really I guess, even though this "rant" is fairly long.

I love you.