The point is...

I'm really going to miss you when we have to move on. It's typical with everyone, right? To miss who and what they grew up with. Jeani, i'll love you forever. Happy almost birthday. fifth birthday together :)

"When you turned away, when you slammed the door, when you stole the car and drove toward Mexico."

This feeling is terrible, this song brings it all pouring in. I think about memories, ones from the last few years. All the stories encompassed in these last few years that have led me to where I am. Picking up of habits, letting go of relationships, fixing ones that were broken, making someonthing of myself. I must say I know that many teenage girls "love" certain artists, or are quick to love every song that comes out as a hit..But Conor Oberst, my God, he's beautiful. :) His lyrics, his face, beautiful. His music brings me to tears.
People help you to realize your purpose. The people I have continue to do that. And I love it.

"Ill be your strength. I'll give you hope, keeping your faith when it's gone. The one you should call when you're standing there all alone."
Backstreet Boys <3 Ha

Megan-

I never realized the girl who would come in late, always claiming to come from swimming to driving school would end up being so close to me.

Now that you're here, it'd be crazy if you left. "I go where you go" and you've truly made that promise. I adore you in all the greatest ways, your sense of humor, your comfortability with me, the way you put yourself out there, your odd-ball sense of personality, and your compassion for somoeone like me. You have told me outright all the things that could make somebody melt, and you're never afraid to admit that or stand up for me. Our relationship growing has been the best thing for me this year, and it's all because of you.

You make for great memories, you remind me how great it is to get to know someone completely new, and you respect all the choices I've made and do make. You don't give me crap, but better yet, help me to make better decisions. You have a great way of making people laugh, but you still show me your calm, caring side, and it's something I greatly admire.

Yes, you are so strong, you don't have to do much to prove that to me. You keep the people important to you close, and the memories of them closer. You are someone I look up to. I don't idealize you, because you are the best you I could ever meet. I don't have regrets about you, it's been the best choice ever. I don't hope, wish, or doubt, because I know in my heart you care.

So thank you, for giving me reassurance, for loving me, accepting me, enjoying life with me, changing me. These are the moments I won't ever forget.

I love you so much, and will always keep you close to my heart.

No Lies, Just Love, right?

No lies, I'm terrified. Just love, yours is what I need.
I want to bury all this, leave it all behind me.

Lime Tree-Bright Eyes,
it brings tears to my eyes.
You should watch it.

I pray to God, I find a purpose in the hectic outcome of this situation.
You all help bring me faith.
And it's what I want you to know.

And Dear Megan,
Happy flippin' birthday. Thanks for putting yourself in my life. Without you, life would be so much less enjoyable. And you bring comfort to this situation. I love you, I do. :)

Things on my mind as of now.

-My heart.
-The future.
-Hospital.
-First night home.
-Break's almost over.
-Julie.
-Josh.
-Surgery?
-Lost.
-Strength.
-Weakness.
-80 degrees.
-Tan.
-Myrtle Beach. Now.
-Last summer.
-Smiles.

:)